I periodically take some time to step away from my day to day life and re-evaluate. It’s an exercise in re-evaluating priorities, looking at what’s taking up my time and then figuring out what needs to be removed from my life in order to align to my priorities. At least that’s how it normally goes.
As you know by now, I am out on maternity leave. I’ve been blessed to be able to take 4 months off from work, and am really enjoying the time, for a myriad of reasons. I love spending my days with my Itsy, getting to know this little bundle of joy the Lord has blessed us with. I enjoy not having the normal hustle and bustle of life thrown at me constantly. And frankly, I enjoy not really having to figure out what to wear each day. Well, not dressing up. I actually take some time to figure out what to wear daily, and am typically changed at the end of the day because Itsy has spit up on my shirt one too many times. Ahh, the joys of motherhood!
During this time of leave, I’ve started re-examining and re-evaluating my life in a different way. I’ve entered a new chapter, a new journey, and with that comes shifting priorities. The constant go-go-go pace that I previously kept has got to, for the sake of my sanity, if nothing else, slow way down. Thoughts that consumed me daily (How’s this project going? When will this thing happen? Am I being productive enough at work/home/community?) no longer take up space in my brain. I actually feel like I’m thinking more clearly than ever before (except in the middle of the night, when I can barely stay awake long enough to nurse Itsy). It’s like there’s nothing but time and space in this head of mine (not that it’s empty, or my brain cells left, just to be clear). There’s just an inexplicable calm and peacefulness that is allowing me to really think clearly for the first time in a very long time.
I don’t know what the future holds for me, but I’m always down for the ride and the journey. I do encourage people to take time to really clear their heads, though. We move at such a hustle and bustle pace all the time, we forget to “Stop, Collaborate and Listen.” (A prize to the first person to put in the comments where that came from). Well, not Collaborate. Unless it’s just in your quiet/prayer time. But I digress. We have to stop going through life, and start being purposeful about everything we do. So take a step back, take a break from it all, and ask, “What am I supposed to be doing?” and sit still long enough to hear not just the answer, but the “how.”