As you can tell from last week’s post, I’ve got a few things going on right now. Work is busy, life is busy, and it is a little overwhelming. Tuesday night was the first time in 2 weeks that I actually rested, meaning, I wasn’t just sleep. I got to close my eyes and rest, without random thoughts and dreams popping into my head. I’ve taken a few days off from work this week, and was excited that my night of rest was a sign of better things to come. I got up Wednesday morning, got in a great workout at the park, and thought, “Oh, yes, I’ve got endorphins, life is good.” I even began to invoke my inner Elle Woods (Reese Witherspoon’s character in “Legally Blonde”) and found myself saying, “Exercise gives you endorphins. Endorphins make people happy. Happy people [aren’t mean, they just aren’t].” Sidenote: the quote actually ends, “Happy people just don’t shoot their husbands, they just don’t.” I always change it to suit my situation.
Unfortunately, Tuesday night’s restful sleep was not night a sign of more restful nights to follow. Correction: it wasn’t followed by a restful sleep on Wednesday night. Admittedly, this is my own fault. While I am off work for a few days, there are a number of things going on, and I can’t let the ball drop on them. Yes, this is where my workaholic tendency comes in. I’ve been . . . monitoring . . . my BlackBerry. Responding to the items I deem as urgent that no one else is in a position to answer, and skipping the rest. I really should be putting the Blackberry away completely; I’m working on it. It’s quite draining to plan a memorial service, and, frankly, my few days off are more about needing to focus on that than they are about needing time off from work (but I am in need of a vacation, honestly).
Now, I’m not here to whine or complain. In the midst of my not so restful sleep Wednesday night, I had an interesting revelation. Sometimes, in the midst of everything going on, you just have to smile. You know, like the Kirk Franklin song says, “You look so much better when you smile, so smile.” So I’m smiling. And one of my favorite things that makes me smile popped into my dreams Wednesday night:
Yes, sometimes I dream in YouTube. Don’t judge me. But my YouTube dreaming made me smile last night. Not just in my dream, but I woke up with a smile on my face (before I fell back asleep). The video is cute, you know you laughed and probably watched it more than once, but it isn’t just about being cute. It is a reminder that you have to take time out and just enjoy the special moments in life, the ones that make you smile.
My week isn’t all about sadness and stress. Yes, it’s hard to know that my grandmother is gone, and even harder for me, who has spent my 33 years of life blessed with 4 living grandparents yet, in just 9 short months, I’ve lost 2 of them. Work can be stressful, but I do enjoy what I do (most days, we all have “those days.”). But I’ve laughed a lot the past couple weeks, I had a BLAST hanging out with my mom yesterday while we ran errands in preparation for the memorial service. In other words, I’ve found the moments to make me smile in the midst of what can be a trying time.
What are you going through today that makes you feel down? Don’t let it get you down. Find your favorite thing, and make sure you Smile. “You look so much better when you smile, so smile.”